Worry

This week in our Bible Study over The Armor of God we talking about peace, something I think we all want to have in our lives. It's something that can impact our thoughts, feelings, actions, and emotions, and one thing the author said was that if we are feeling a lack of this in our lives, we can be pretty sure that Satan has his hands in the mix.

For me, a lack of peace means an excess of anxiety and worry. Philippians 4:6 says "Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by pray and petition, present your requests to God." 

I wouldn't normally call myself a worrier, however, with only about two weeks left at home with Hannah I have been feeling myself worrying about the transition back to work. I feel like we are doing pretty good with this SAHM thing. I have time to clean, do laundry, and generally get dinner ready while Hannah naps, but once I go back to work that time is gone.

With Grant I remember having to rush out of school to pick him up, as the ladies were trying to hold him off from eating so I could nurse him.  I'm not sure what that will look like with Hannah and having to pick up Grant. I'm hoping I can feed her and put her down for a nap while I make dinner, but I'm not sure.

Hannah also isn't waking up at a consistent time each day yet.  She's been waking up pretty consistently one time at night, but every once in a while it's two time and once she slept through the night.  I'm really feeling anxious about how I'm going to get Hannah, myself, and Grant fed and out the door once I'm back to work, especially if she's waking up at inconsistent times. Grant can do most things on his own, he just needs some prompting, and Brian will take the kids, but I have visions of myself showing up to school without deodorant, makeup, or my teeth brushed because I needed to feed Hannah and my whole normal routine gets thrown off.

I'm also not sure what my devotional time will look like.  Previously, I got up at 5:30 and did devotions before showering, but once again, I'm not sure that'll work with Hannah quite yet.

See- worry and anxiety. And where these are present there is a lack of peace.  The logical side of myself knows everything will work out and we will get adjusted to our new back-to-work normal, but I'm letting a lack of peace take up too much space in my head and it's keeping me from fully enjoying the last few weeks at home.

I'm not sure if you would describe yourself as at peace, but I know that true peace and contentment only comes from God, and we only need to ask for his help to have it in our lives.  I"m currently praying for peace as well as being specific with my request that Hannah begin to wake up at a consistent time and that our morning will lack chaos.  I believe God hears our prayers, what can you start praying for today?

Even though I'm anxious about returning to work, I'll admit, getting dressed up feels good. I got this cardigan and this top from thredUp with credits lately. Use this link for $10 off your first purchase. The cardigan was new with tags, here is a similar one and the top was too. My old lace top has seen better days, so I really needed a replacement. I love this one,  here's a similar one in a tank version.  I wore this to church, but will definitely need to repeat it once I'm back to school.

Cardigan: J.Crew similar  via thredUp (Use this link for $10 off your first purchase)

Blouse: Loft via thredUP similar

Necklace: Chloe and Isabel c/o

Pants: Mossimo similar

Heels: Merona similar