Food

I've realized the age where you start to feel gross and old-it's 38. Suddenly, I see the wrinkles and feel the pounds. Being pregnant and then nursing allowed me to have some pretty unhealthy eating habits- i.e. eat anything I want without seeing an negative effects. I was done nursing before Christmas, but my eat habits have continued. I also haven't been as active as I'd like. I'm thankful summer is here so we can spend as much time as possible outside as well as biking, I think that will be good. I've also talked with Brian about joining the Y again, but we are going to be so busy the next couple of weeks it won't do any good, as we won't be able to get there. However, the big change I do now is change my bad eating habits. 

I've trained myself that I need something sweet after meals and I'm noticing the bored and mindless eating too. With having two small kids I have to be realistic about what cooking and meals will look like around the house, but can have better self-control and pay attention to when my body is really hungry and feed it with healthy snacks and not the carb, sugar loaded ones I have been wanting. 

I started a food diary, something I did years ago that really helped to hold me accountable and realize what's actually going into my body. For example, for lunch Sunday I had a turkey wrap and three strawberries. It was delicious, but as I began to dissect the calories I noticed a couple of things-eating any fruit has hardly any calories, so I can eat away, and my wrap had more calories than I thought. Tortilla-100 (although less than two pieces of bread), turkey-60, and cheese 60. That's not bad, but the mayo was also 60 and the three pickles were 35. I added almost 100 calories with two unnecessary things. Whomp, whomp. That I can change.

I don't expect to lose a ton of weight, but I'm no fool, if I keep eating the way I have been the last few years I am going to gain a bunch of weight and my metabolism isn't going to do me any favors as I continue to age either. 

I'm writing this to you all for accountability sake, I've said it, so now I need to mean it. I just want to feel good and work to not teach Grant and Hannah bad eating habits either. I already hear Grant complaining he's hungry when I know it's actually boredom. That's not good and I need to lead by example.