Recently Grant is becoming more interested in understanding God. He has also gotten frustrated at church because he wants to take communion and be baptized. I love his interest and enthusiasm and he's told me he has Jesus in his heart, which I just love. I want to take him at his word, however , not undervalue what it is that Christ did for each of us on the cross, so Brian and I have told him that we need to wait to do communion and baptism until he gets a bit older ,and we know he really understands and accepts that Jesus died for his sins.
That being said, Grant has "baptized" himself in the bathtub. One day I walked in and heard him come up from being underwater saying "Raised to walk in newness of life!" This makes my heart melt, however, I'm not sure that's how it works, kiddo. I love that his is getting a heart for Jesus and really want to help him cultivate that.
Over the weekend we were are the Christian bookstore picking out a few things and we came to an area that had a lot of different crosses, some of which still had Jesus crucified on them. Grant just got so overwhelmed and started crying. I asked him what was wrong and he said he was just so sad that Jesus had to die, and why did the bad soldiers have to do that to him? I reminded him of the truth that Jesus isn't still on that cross, he rose again and is in heaven, and that he did it just for us!
We ended up picking out a cross ornament for Grant to get, but what really stuck me was the pure emotions Grant felt...the sadness for the death of someone who did nothing wrong....the questioning as to why anyone would want to heart Jesus. It made me think about how lightly I can sometimes take things. My emotions rarely get this raw. Jesus said "Come to me all who are weary and heavy laden, and I will give you rest." In Mathew 18:2-4 Jesus says,"Truly, unless you change and become like little children, you will never enter the kingdom of God."
I want my faith to look more like Grant's does. I want to feel all the feels and be just as devastated by his death as Grant is. I think God is definitely moving in Grant's life, just like he wants to move in our lives. Sometimes I think we really need to see things through the eyes of a child. Brian and I will definitely continue to nurture Grant's faith, and I know it will become clear when Grant really does "get it," and I can't wait for the time when he will be baptized and take communion.
Cozy outfits like this are totally my jam right now, and at nearly 40 weeks pregnant, they ought to be, right? Last year I got a tunic like this from Target and they sold out before I could get my hands on another one. So, this year they went on sale over Black Friday weekend and I snatched one up, then they went on sale again and I got two more for good measure. It's obviously not maternity, but the stretchy cotton is great and I love the fit of it when I'm not pregnant. For size reference, this is a medium, so they are pretty roomy for the non-prego woman. I think while I'm at home with Hannah this winter for maternity leave tops like this will be perfect, so why not have four right? ;)
Tunic: Merona same
Vest: Cold Water Creek similar
Leggings: Motherhood Maternity
Earrings: Nickel and Suede same
Necklace: Stella and Dot
Boots: Merona same
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